gOsh ing

2005-01-26T20:22:00.000-08:00

Righttt.. after i got back to spore.. theres a lot of things to settle like my entire roomed transformed into a kiddie house and my school not yet settled and my account turnning out of my money,
sheeze why does a gal have so many priblems?! and the most pressing was my attire for skul was like so limited!!
hahahhaa..
Anyway the thing i firgured to get money was to get a job.. so i did at zambuca (or something liddat forgot how to spell)
actually everything went along fine.. i was even enjoying myself..
it was exhausting but kinda fun but at the end had to quit. NOT BECAUSE IM SOME RICH GAL WHO CANT STAND HARDSHIP ALRIGHT?
its just because i had no more time for other stuff including my school =)
so there..
my school was settled in a day (amazing feat aint it)
and i was assigned to my various classes and met some frends and a couple of weirdos (including myself)
painted my nails white black pink and now french style..
lolz..
ignored a guy accidentally.. created rumours and scandals and apparently is the youngest in the whole entire skul with my gang.. lolz................
ok so thats that......
im gonna go study for my test now ladies and gents.. BUBYE

BTW THIS LAST TWO ENTRIES WERE FORCED BY WEIWEI FOR ME TO WRITE. YES WE DONT THINK I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT YA FORCED ME TO WRITE IT
for those of ya who cant stand wad de hell im writting i'll give ya an email address to complain to. thats right. the gal who forced me to write all these and that is none other then wewe freakyouout@hotmail.com

2004-11-19T12:53:00.000-08:00

AHA. wheeeeee wheeeeeeeeee.. exams over............ er not really but wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee its overrrrrrrrrrrr
hahahahaa.. so happy!!!
But now nothing to do.. *yawn*
o dear.. i've like spend 200 bucks yesterday!! wohooooooooo. brainless pigg..
now only left lil lil money..
who cares im goin to indonesia soon anyway den can shopping again!!
i used to think that ppl who go shopping are brainless bimbos........................
and now i love shopping. smack myself in de face..
hahahahaa.. managed to sell 3 tickets yesterday. right. so about a hundred more to go -.-
haiyooo... everything was goin well.. till we had to sell de tickets and get ppl to actually BUY em lalalalalalalalalalaa......
yesterday went out with *ay*** funny. met arif and his petite girlfriend who i think took an instant dislike to me as she looked me up to down gave me a meaningful cold stare and stopped smiling once she saw me -.-
met ronnie too. please please dont talk rubbiish today during his training =x
lol
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..

This is my CONFESSION PART TWO ( so usher like!!! wooooooooohooooooo)
er herm er hermm..
During de graduation caremony everyone was having fun taking pictures heree and there den it suddenly occured to me that we're really leaving out of this stupid august building (woah.cool english yea? =X) no more hanging out no more making fun no more pipakelongdidong no more bujubuju no more wad a loser no more you clown no more wah laoz no more acting stupid no more jolly walker no more HELP ME BUY FOOD no more fights no more laughter no more hiding in de corner of de staircase and crying no more running away from pe no more cheating in tests.........
hqahahaha.. so many stuff.. but its quite saddening.. that some ppl ca still be such backstabbers even till now -.- when we're all gonna leave dis is my memory of all of ya =)
*a** : calls me a fake how bout ya? a bit hypocritical dont ya think?
e*** : horny my lucky star. X)
*he** : glad we're ok now. lolz
tingz : grow up i love you
*ab** : ignore those ppl. regain who ya are
*oe* : make more frenz stop introverting youself
*a**e* : i'll let ya in my house should ya wanan visit again
**y** : woah. stop de bhbness. treat her well
we**** : go for her. ya know ya can. why stop now?
**y**o** : tsk. hygiene is important. such a nice guy
**s*** : be a man
Fiona : i love ya babe. show yer smartness
shi : woah mama. got boyfren attitude improved so much. good gal i know ya love me. i love ya too
lolz.. i so fling love so many ppl and all are gals -.- im not les.

er.. for my klas i think this is all i can remember.. haha.. sorry

**a** : we still have a date to fish
**a* : the misunderstanding betweeen us after 3 years is not cleared.
**a*** : im glad everything turned out well for ya
***o* : woah. hot =x
a**l** : lying does nobody good.
and thats all for now..

hahhaa.. goin back indo soons with my cousins. love them so much.. bring me around show me handsome guys.. hMM mixed blood guys are so gorgeous and sexy. they got that certain appeal.. im gonna take my pick at bBali man.. hahahaha.. here i goooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Today lisa bdays. gonna celebrate for her. still owe money. lolz.. im bankrupt. lisa = 15 pig = 14 zy = 14 celina = 14 all still owe me money. im so broke. lolz..

de prom how?! why so many ppl dont wanan go!? its gonna be great its gonna be marvellous but it'll be nothin without $$

2004-10-29T14:26:00.000-07:00

YAWN. just woke up. so piggish. havent brush teeth wash face but in front of de computer already. tsk.
i cant wait till O lvls is finished. Tash keeps saying. ow can ya guys be excited bout O lvls. its retarded.
weeeeellllllllllllllllllll.. i know i wont do well anyway
so i spend my days now planning a shopping resume..
MUAHAHAHA..
but not to woryy..
i promised myself i wont spend more den 500 dollars =))
after all i am goin JAKARTA to shop summoreeee
b4 goin to lake toba.. heehehee
so fun.. im goin to most parts of indonesia. its like how can ya call yerself an indonesian when ya nv even been to Indonesia ?
after dat i'll chill with my cuz and their friends in Bali..
we've already got our own villa there complete with our own backyard pool..
cant wait for it. weeeeeeeeeee

25 days to end of O lvl
33 days to prom night
34 days to goin back indo

2004-10-26T02:16:00.000-07:00

AHA.. O levels 6 more days. i have a feeling i'll do badly coz i nv study at all
hehehehe
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee finally de prom is underway
now got prob th ough. must CALL MREO PPL

2004-10-19T11:27:00.000-07:00

atOOoOOoOoo.. skip klas to study but what ami doin? blogging in front of de comp.. and when i finally getbored will i study? NOOoooo.. i will go find food.. and when im full? i'll lie down and sleep! what kind of attitude is that!?
hahahahhaa..
this is what ya get when theres no motivation whatsoever to study. goin to australia doesnt seem so exciting anymore. de more i think bout it de more i dread having to take care of myself.
hehehe.. pampered spoilt brat. i only know one person there who im not even close with i think i lost contact with him when i lost my password to my email.. GRR
yesterday my aunt and mom drunk so they call me down
i cant really fanthom what they were saying but i think it was on the line of should i buy an island or should i buy a Louis Vuitton. they are so drunk its kinda funny. i didnt really take notice though i was busy waching and clutching my tummy. its so damn painful. i wanna cry.
but nvm theres a nice lil piggy taking care of me. well sort of. hahaha.. coz shes damn lazy too.. so i must show her a really pathetic face and goooooo. oliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiv. pain. thirsty. den MAYBE she'll get up and take for me a drink. so damn pissed. just bought one carton of ice cream and tummy pain. BOO

i seem to be losing weight. that is a nono. i shall stuff myself everyday with more vigour. and now i shall go down( omg. stairs!!!) and eat my brunch. i was planning to eat breakfast but i woke up at 11 den bathe till 1130 by that time i got pissed my rooms not clean so i started spraying perfume all pver so it will smell nice at least and i cleared my bed and all de mess left behind from yesterdays gossip. haha. Lisa came up and we gossip till 1 plus. amazing wad a few gals and a topic can do yea...

and now.. STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY.. lalalalalalalaa

2004-10-16T20:50:00.000-07:00

ARGH. O LVLS> ARGH> lalalalalalla
hahahahhaa =X

2004-10-15T15:28:00.000-07:00

AHA.. i wanna thankz celina and gene and de rest who have helped all this while in making de prom come true..
its so difficult and i've come to realized that we take events and stuff organised by de skul for granted. sure it may be boring but think bout how much money effort and time put in for every performance.. DE COST esp!!!
Now dat we're being rebellious and organising our OWN prom night thinking wad a treat it would be for us. ppl are fuck shite putting us down. if ya dun wanan come. i dun give a hoot so shut it.
but it would be nice if we could appear united as de last batch of chung cheng or so i hope..
but theres still hope as some ppl had showed much enthu for this event.. please note dat a lot of effort have been put in. a lot of phone calls made. a lot of bills coming. and yer paying de bare minimal we;re doin all the work plus working our sorry ass for de extra debt. so instead show us a bit gratitude please?

it would be great though to see all ya guys. happy faces and small. made up to look like barbie and ken dolls. another thing. FORMAL does not mean SUIT TUXEDO AND GOWNS THAT OVERFLOWS DE WHOLE BALLROOM. it means bringing out yer style in a more decent way. a more mature way =))
so guys worrying bout it. chill. just wear long sleeeve and long pants and leather shoes. ya'll look great? all chung chengers look great rite ( a lil kai ma pi here wont hurt)
anyway.. its really quite cheap as it is.. and its really very frustrating if ya guys come up and ask us stupid question. understand when we Ssay LATER. we have a reason for saying. doesnt mean yer in a superior klas means ya have a superior understanding. if ya do. go try doin this shit and pullin it off kz?
im not trying to say anything or offend anyone. but i would hope ya all show a lil bit of understanding. all de infos on ed programme and menu will be out soon. i promise ya guys. so please stop hurrying when ya dunno how much work is being done here. and i apologize to some ppl for being cranky esp Michelle Lee. im sorry =)
THIS IS A SELF ORGANIZED FUNCTION. de reason we do not wanan disclose info is coz not everything confirmed if we give ya de wrong info.. ya wont like it would ya?
well anyway.. hope ya all would support this prom night. THANKZ PPL

And i hope Ang Ming Qi suffering from sumthing gets well soon ^-^

2004-10-14T05:08:00.000-07:00

YAY.. my new skin is so damn adorable. ahhaha.. finally. cxan see my back ground yea?
but all my previous tags kena erased.. sorry! id idnt even get to read em

2004-10-05T21:16:00.002-07:00

stupid face

2004-10-05T21:16:00.001-07:00

THEY THEY.. TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME

2004-10-05T21:16:00.000-07:00

k. im being buried. and de ball.. its supposed to be my pregnant tummy

2004-10-05T21:15:00.002-07:00

eat and eat. thats wad they all do. tsk

2004-10-05T21:15:00.001-07:00

kiddos playing tug of war. so cuttee

2004-10-05T21:15:00.000-07:00

look at celinas SEXY BACK

2004-10-05T21:14:00.003-07:00

den dis is de part she accepts me =x

2004-10-05T21:14:00.002-07:00

this is de part where i propose to gene

2004-10-05T21:14:00.001-07:00

doggie owner took this for us =)

2004-10-05T21:14:00.000-07:00

celina wanna act bitchy so i help encahnce her pic =x

2004-10-05T21:13:00.003-07:00

DOGGIE AND US

2004-10-05T21:13:00.002-07:00

celinas mouth is damn big

2004-10-05T21:13:00.001-07:00

PUFFER FISH ATTACK

2004-10-05T21:13:00.000-07:00

why does celina alwayz have a stupid face?

2004-10-05T21:12:00.003-07:00

gene so sweeeeeeeeeeet

2004-10-05T21:12:00.002-07:00

we didnt have enough ppl to make a star/ so we made a. thats right! A TRIANGLE

2004-10-05T21:12:00.001-07:00

o man.

2004-10-05T21:12:00.000-07:00

wanna be charlie angel but failed =p

2004-10-05T21:11:00.002-07:00

they look so confused. ya know why? they are fighting over me

2004-10-05T21:11:00.001-07:00

doesnt gene remind ya of a tortoise? stretch yer neck summore LA

2004-10-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

spore idol wannabe

2004-10-05T21:10:00.003-07:00

me and genee.. look at genes ****

2004-10-05T21:10:00.002-07:00

O YES. i think i took this one =x SO NICE RITE?

2004-10-05T21:10:00.001-07:00

cant remember who took this.. think gene.. coz her photo taking skill SUX

2004-10-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

kissy

2004-10-05T21:09:00.005-07:00

tsk

2004-10-05T21:09:00.004-07:00

adorable baby yea? SHES A GIRL

2004-10-05T21:09:00.003-07:00

threee of us. FINALLY

2004-10-05T21:09:00.002-07:00

CELINA

2004-10-05T21:09:00.001-07:00

look at their stupid faces

2004-10-05T21:09:00.000-07:00

cel and gene TEETH

2004-10-05T21:08:00.003-07:00

me and gene

2004-10-05T21:08:00.002-07:00

actt cute -.-

2004-10-05T21:08:00.001-07:00

promoting de use of sunblock. strongly recommend

2004-10-05T21:08:00.000-07:00

gene. SEXAY

2004-10-05T21:07:00.003-07:00

when we just arrived. IM SO HUNGRY

2004-10-05T21:07:00.002-07:00

celina eatin gtooo!!

2004-10-05T21:07:00.001-07:00

gene red pig eating

2004-10-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

me and cel.. we are wearing red. beware

2004-10-05T21:06:00.001-07:00

me and gene stupid face plus celinas stupid finger

2004-10-05T21:06:00.000-07:00

me and gene// look at genes tiger tooth!!

2004-10-05T21:05:00.003-07:00

me n cell.. gene photo skill SUX

2004-10-05T21:05:00.002-07:00

three if uss.. hoho.. we are so RED

2004-10-05T21:05:00.001-07:00

gene n cel.. acting stupid as usual

2004-10-05T21:05:00.000-07:00

me in monorail...

2004-10-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

gene n cell in monorail..

2004-10-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

peek a boo!!! acting cooool

2004-10-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

O YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss exams OVER!!
lolz still got O lvls =x
but who cares?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
b4 dat got WU LAI by all de teachers. FOOK YOU..
muahahahahahhahaaa... ESP TEO. BLAST ya to UTOPIA.
im so boredd.. and nanananananananannaaa IM NOT GONNAUPLOAD DE PICS?!
wad ya gonna do.. lolz.. also hMMM wad celina alwayz say.. o ya.. LL
=x
hahaha.. went to sentosa with gene n celina.. SO ROMANTIC.
hahahahhaa. den go there play till now sunburn go home kena scolded by mom..
OMG . YOU YOU. SO BLACk. my moms words. lolz
den next day she came into my room.. wanna eat CHOCOLATE?
lolz... so sarcastic.
hehhehehee.. but t'was quite fun. i dun wanna see SIM. you stupid fat hog.
call me xmas tree principle pinky . I DUNNO WAD YA'LL CALL ME NEXT.. YER MOM?!
booooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd
yutings told me my chem marks. tsk. just pass. lousy fark. wadeva la..
hahahaa.. KIAPS. wait for my CONFESSION PART 2
so cool!!! so like. USHER USHER =x

2004-10-01T16:18:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeee... can say that prelims over!! (well actually tml theres science paper one and geog paper one) i know i wont do really well.. but i hope its enough. long time nv blog le.. hahah.. it seems like de starting of most blogs nowadays ish. Long time nv blog le. IM SO BORED. today no need to go to skul coz i dropped a math.. ah well.. even if i go also a waste of time.. Last nite went out to eat.. now really cashless.. wanna ask my papa for money.. but its like.. call him only ask for money.. lol.. so wait till my mama tell my papa..
wakakkakaka..

Im so boredd.. i think this will be de last time i blog yea? coz seriously i feel that in a blog where everyone can see yer thoughts and feelings.. it should only happen when yer dead. and im not. So here goesssssssssssssss...

IM ING. hahaha.. i changed my name to Isabelle Cheng Ying Ying de Ying is my Papas Ying and de 2nd Ying ish my Mamas Ying de Cheng ish my Daddys and De isabelle. can say its MINE. lolz.. My Real parents divorced when i was 3 due to infidielty (wrong spelling?) thats why.. maybe i dun have much confidence in guys.. i just cant stand cheating coz thats wad broke my family up. i cant say i went through as much as my mother though. Shes My Hero =x

She brought me up single handly without taking money from my dad.. she worked part time took care of me and completed her studies. cool yea? I was a resident of Australia then.. de best thing that could happen to my mom happened. she found my daddy.. so together we moved to Singapore where i dropped my citizenship in australia and recently became a Singaporean.. contrary to wad most indonesians will say. im quite happy to be a singaporean. de best part? ya dun hafta pay or apply for a visa =D (foreigners will understand) oki so anyway.. in autralia theres where i met matthew. haha.. when my mom wasnt around he would take care of me.. hes three years older den me.. i cant really remember him but hes my neighbour and he and his mom used to bring me to skul after skul which 3 of us will lie around drinking beer. (my mom doesnt know this till now) hahaha..

Anyway after i came to spore.. i didnt really like it.. de ppl were selfish i suddenly had a new dad and i had to share my mom. plus i had a brother.. it seems too much den plus i was only 5.so my life continued and i accepted my dad as much as he accepted me. i wanna say im sorry for all de rude things i said and done but ya'll never get to read this. i hope anyway, hahaha...there was much opoosition from my daddys family. everyone detested us. we were labelled. but my mmom worked hard to gain their trust. she put up with all their shit and now shes kinda respected but i nv liked their whole family except for my grandma THEIR grandma who they cant wait for her to die off so they wont have to spend a few measly hours taking of her compared to the DAYS my mom slaved for them. shes quite adorable.. i like taking care of minorities coz im one myself. i hate to see ppl alone coz i also hate to be alone thats why most of my lose friends will hear this from me - I WAN A BOYFREN. i keep saying this from sec 3 yea? but its still didnt happen.. ahhaha

anyway on to my moms family. we are a close knitted bunch. but i hate my mom being de one who alwayz get bullied into things like paying for my ah mas medical fee and my ah gongs fee.. it should be shared equally. my moms not their only daughter. plus.. when my mom was younger no body really cared for her.. she was sent abroad to someones home where she was ill treated asked to do house chores all those stuff and she was never given pocket money. she only tasted coke when she was much OLDER. sounds like a drama series doesnt it? but overall we really care bout each other.. and my two most beloved cousins - Yuka and Novi I LOVE YOU hahahahah.. shit i hope nobody reads dis and tells em.

Now den to my love life. dont groan i've only talked bout it a million times. hahaha.. de 1st person i like.. was g*. surprise rite? we were in pri skul.. i got touched by some stupid reasons.. coz uoping was very sweet to a lil girl.. shewas lost and crying guoping was de only person who came over to her and all that.. but we never talked till secondary skul where we were unfortunately clumped together in de same klas and we've become good friends. and of coz coz of dat there were misunderstandings betweeen me and zy de thing that hurt me de most wasnt zy accusing me.. its was xj =( they said a lot of mean things. but so did i i guess.. everyone was angry and everybody felt they were a victim but its all resolved now.. but i forgave but i will never forget. i remember everything haha.. not really.. but i remember things. den when i was in sec skul i fell inlove with st**. haha.. corny yea. but he lied to me.. he said he was gonna transfer out and i was really sad so we stoppped talking den he turn up... i didnt k now wad to say so i avoided himt o straightened out my thinking but ever since he thought i was playing with him and he hates me. well i dunno.. i dun think i meant that much anyway.. so that was that.. den i liked **e*.. haha.. i think this was most publicised! the reason i like foen was probably coz i was dating l***** for a week.. coz i just wanted a boyfren for de sake of it.. den i realized i was wrong so i broke up with him.. to set de record straight. i didnt go to the toilet and cry after i asked to break up with him i went to the toilet to WASH my hands coz b4that we went to bengawan solo factory and i was eating a cake and my hands were dirty. =x ok then.. yilong liked me then.. and everyone blamed me for leading ***o** on. HOLD ON THERE. i never accepted him so how was i leading him on? ok then **e* was de only one who called me and talked to me since then.. i like dat.. as i said i dun like to be lonely so foen accompanied me.. butten.. he was also close to e***** who hates me. coz of that *****a hated me too.. NOW PPL.. this is one of de reasons i hate talking to ppl with STEADs.. i've had had ebough of misunderstanding my whole entire fucked up life. ok on to it.. **e* ended up with s******* coz i coudlnt open up.. plus i have a jealous streak. yes. i admit it. hahaha hMM i think at this time ****y and m**** ** dun like me too coz they also like **e* yea? anyway now we;re oki too although m*** ** still gives me weird faces. i dun like ppl to gimme weird faces. wad have i done? why must ya gimme dat face. ok den after him i moved on but it took me 2 months yea? haha..im so CHI QING (ppl my age call it stupid) den i started to fall for someone again.. but i knew i wasnt his type plus we were cramping each others style and he had SO MANY gals with him.. haha.. so now he's with de gal i knew he would fall for. so does that proves im right? yes it does.. so ladies and gentlemen thats my pathetic love life.

so now my beloved friends.. wad would i do without ya?! de most imppt is of coz yuting. we are like lesbians but not so gay. haha.. its a love hate relationship. she thrashes ard shes wild she... i dunnoe. my mom doesnt like her.. and for awhile i dropped her. butthe n i realized. she was de one whos really there for me. so bitchy me. i wanted her back. and SHES MINE. haha.. nah now she has weisheng and im happy for her.. she seems to mature somehow. WOW. haha.. den on to xj its an off on realtionship. we had de misunderstandin rite.. so i cant forget it. so i dunnoe sometimes how to face her.. but she so adroable ya see.. haha.. ya just cant ignore her. den theres zy.. i guess de anemosity(wrong spelling again) between us ish de greatest but we somehow survived each other.. and she has a mture side to keep everyone in check yea? and everyone else in 2a.. sometime i try to get close to em but somehow i just cant.. i dunnoe.. sometime feel so inferior to everyone.. they seemed to enjoying themselves i feel like im imposing on em.. haha.. and im most comfy with darren but darren got sherly and although we're just friends de guys tend to tease and its not really fair to anyone is it.. then hMM KIAP HOW haha.. been smsing with him yea? its like both of us are so screwed up lol. so hmM.. birds of a feather flock together? haha.. hmM theres still so many!!! hahah wait there will be a part two =x im so luo so

2004-09-18T04:56:00.000-07:00

BrRr.. STILL CANT BLOG. stupid explorer.. dun have time to blog.. must study study but today went out.. with de intention to shop. but mom couldnt go. coz grandma got an infection.. i hope shes ok.. she just recovered from her cancer thingi.. O YES. i forgot my pass for my email inggri@hotmail.com after i gave de pass to shi n i changed it n i forgot. GRR.. lolz.. den my maid nv changed my bed sheet quite long i think =x so i went to change it my self. im so proud. i did it in 25 minutes!!!! MUAHAHAHHAA.. den today went to buy mooncake de guy who sell de mooncake.. quite cute.. HOHOHO.. but got gf le plus he's too old.. lolz.. at first looks quite fierce but after talking awhile he smiled den look quite cutee.. hehehehe.. so tiredd.. waiting for ***** to reply.. i think im gonna go for it one last time.. den suffer de worst rejection before crying myself silly and really move on.. weeeeee.. i got a plan.. so gooood.. *Prelim English p1 quite good i guess SS POOR*

2004-09-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

SEE.. >.< must post pics 1st!!! BRRR... *HowCouldYaLookMeStraightInTheEyeAfterAllThatsBeenDone?* just now got lightning.. PA PA.. shi laughed at me. evil shis. showed her touching email. she didnt cry too. SHI SHI SHI evils. tsk. i find my blog music very irritating.. but i dunnoe how to changee.. hahaa.. so fun.. keep studying den sleep den eat den study again..

2004-09-14T00:47:00.000-07:00

Aint HE CUTE?!!! hahahaa.. ma des.. explorer spoilt.. unless i use HELLO post pics cant blog. *YAWN* tml practical le.. weeeeee weeeeee.. scareed sia..

2004-09-11T06:17:00.001-07:00

this one really cool.. like.. morphed.. lolz

2004-09-11T06:17:00.000-07:00

cool yeah? i just realized i could mixed pictures together.. weeeeet weeeeet

2004-09-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

COOL YEAH? During teachers Day take de.. weeeeee weeeeee

2004-09-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

O damn.. i wanan go Sydney to further my studies.. But not with him.. hahha.. I apologized today ya know.. but he doesnt want my Apology i guess.. he doesnt want me anymore.. but who blames him.. LOOK AT MYSELF. stupid dumb short blaack irritating idiot. farker. im so useles.s.. but i feel so bu gan xin. i gave in so much... i really tried but in de end all this for naught. damn damn damn damn.. i so hate myself. feel like a slut BITCH

I will still do well.. ya'll see.. i wont let myself down anymore.. i had enough. hahaha.. thankz kiapyyyyy.. my tudi zhang da le.. now hes de one giving me advice.. shit.. yuting will b so pissed when she knows wad ive done.. Mayb i shd have gone Us instead.. i know theres someone waiting for me there... BUT i really misssssss him n like himmmmm n im such an idiottt.... hahahahahhaa

O man.. so tired.. today went hillside to swim.. willbe moving there soon.. Gosh move again.. but who cares.. no difference anyway... MUahahahaa.. had a nice swim now aching all over.. hair still wet.. got a lot of Qi Ko Pes there though. Hmm. who cares.. also look at oliv not me.. im just skin n bone. goin to sleep sooon.. feel like shit.. i apologized and i still get shit. Yawn sleep

2004-08-29T14:34:00.000-07:00

ARGH. ma des. i blog the whole thing kena erased. BRR.

Yesterday talked it out. but i wasnt much helped. i didnt wana remember all de hurtful things for me. So Pain Ya Know!!! hahaha.. idiot. Stressed up lately.. CA results out. ALL SO BADLY DONE!! brR.. see Louis Nick makes me so scared everytime. Bought Lots Of stuff!!!! WEeeeeee.. third time im repeatin! i bought 5 pair of earings! a necklace! a belt! a PINK BUNNY TOWEL RACK! A PINK GUESS HAT!!! a pair of CK slippers!! coz got 20% discount ma!! heheheheheee.. HmM.. cant really remember wad else i bought.. but i know dis few days i spent 300 bucks? thats a lot for me! in 2 days =x All his fault. stress me up =x i still like him. dumb dumb dumb dumb

ACHOO. Yesterday watched Alien VS Predator. The show is more funny than scary! The Predator.. eeew. ugly things. de mother alien is even more disgusting. It was actually LAYING EGGS =x Gross.. the movie.. not really nice. guessed de story immediately. LOUSY. hahaa.. The Alien damn funny! They have HAIR! its like Dreadlocks!! and when de alien and de gal tag they run together.. both hairs were like SWISH SWISH. so damn farnie! And de best part - when the alien warrior died four other aliens carried him in a STRETCHER. hahahaha.. That was de best man!

We came out earlier than cindy n ton so me n lisa waited outside cine , i was drinking passion fruit tea Lisa was eating popcorn. LOL.. And since i was wearing my PINK GUESS HAT. one fella came up to me n nod to me so i nodded back..

Fella: Hi
Ing : Hi
Lisa : Your Friend Ar?
Ing : Huh? no i dunnoe who is that..
Lisa : THEN STILL SAY HI!?

LOL.. i was like. im a tourist i dont speak english! hahahaha.. After that FINALLY cindy called so we went Swensens and eat.. Ordered Banana Split... Supposed to share with Lisa. But she saw de ice cream a bit melted den pushed everything to me. Lucky i was stressed so Clean everything up. Hohohohohoo.. By de time we reached home it was about 3 am. Slept like a log. but 9 am was awoken by Dads shouting. WOW. first time, see la no mom den.... i've got no more money!! Stressed.

2004-08-25T21:43:00.000-07:00

we got asked to pose for a picture den they asked one by one where our clothes came from and its price.. so cool!

2004-08-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

i wish ya were here when im lonely . i wish ya would hold me when im cold. i wish ya would call and talk to me when lightning strikes. i wish ya would accompany me when im bored

2004-08-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

Mom away again. omg. hafta go home myself.. so damn far.. Grr. my ear bleeding. damnit.. so pain. omg.. it keeps bleedingz!!!
hai.. so confused where to go.. everyone has different expectations. i really wanna leave spore though. but i dun wanan go back indo n work for my father.. thats like like like like like.. i dunnoe.. de holiday from hell.... i have no standing there anymore anyway why bother goin back.

Shd go US or stay in sg??!?!?!not even sure my marks can warrant me any place.... my math passed chem failed physics passed (surprise!!!)havent get back anymore.. but.. Mdm sue. OMg.. really.. speeceless today.skipped klas.. really no mood to study at all. went shopping.. relieved some stress but still fed up. ear still bleeding. it hurts.. *cRies* hafta write letter. dun wanan go skul. ear still bleeds.

idiot.. such a liar. i cant believe it. dumb me. stupid. you bastard.

Dont Look At Me Like You Really Love Me Dont Say You Love Me If You Dont Want Me

2004-08-23T23:38:00.000-07:00

ARgh. i hate growing up. its so bothersome. been some time since last blogged. Just finished common test.. actually tml still got a math.. but dropped. Mom keep hinting for me to take it up again.. crap. i cant do math to save my life...................

1st arguement today. quite fun. should argue more.. den make him cry =x lolz..
idiot. So confused right now. have to make my decision quick.
what to do what to do?

2004-08-18T18:54:00.000-07:00

hai.. finally can drop a math.
relieve

2004-08-15T00:08:00.000-07:00

hmMm.. today went BBQ.. Chars.. got me Lost.. from East Coast To Pasir Ris. NEAR SIA.. wasted 25 bucks.. *cries* ahaha.. but de food was.................. Marvellous.... im still hungry though and still feels that my stomach is underfed. FOOD FOOD FOOD. De GF.. Ma De.. Got a Jian Bian Face.. i keep having de urge to slap her.. but im civillised =x

b4 that went to study at BK.. hahaha.. dis 4 Qs.. stuck at 5th Qs.. therefore fall asleep.. De bridge near de stadium very nice kinda romantic hahaha.. today i just realized theres such a thing in spore =, but it was nice..

*yawn shall sleep now may i have chocolate sweet dreams tonight*

2004-08-14T12:46:00.000-07:00

AHA .. Chinese O Lvl Results came out.. did so poor.. a mere c6.. but luckily.... ehehheeh.. haiz.... so boredd.. lazy to blog.. Common test coming in 5 Days.. 100+ Chapters not tackled.. BrRrrR

2004-08-08T19:43:00.000-07:00

YAY.. t'was Great.. we WON THIRD.. hahahaa.. but actually we could've done better but yuting is scared of de mike =.= hehehehe.. xj n yuting looks so CUTE though!! My Mummy came.. GOD she becoming so pretty that now im borderin on lust for her =x hahahaha.. ate roti prata.. tot have coin prata? but dun have.. dunnnoe la.. hahahaha...stan n reagan came over after cycling to Bukit Timah Nature Trail =Oo FAR sia. hahahahaa.. still sickk.. sniff sniff

2004-08-08T04:42:00.000-07:00

GASP wad IS SUE LOOKING AT?!

2004-08-08T04:41:00.002-07:00

YAY.. dearest Mr Tan.. KUDOS

2004-08-08T04:41:00.001-07:00

we jumped ON HIM.. or actually i did anyway!!

2004-08-08T04:41:00.000-07:00

there de triO~!~! haha.. stop telling me de skirts are cute.. all of em belong to PIG =)

2004-08-08T04:40:00.000-07:00

kisses for de Third Winner of Talentime 2004!

2004-08-08T04:39:00.000-07:00

me and sue only.. wad if *erHerm* gets jealous?! =x

2004-08-08T04:38:00.001-07:00

oh my god.. IM SO SHORT

2004-08-08T04:38:00.000-07:00

Group PIc!!! hahaa.. look at sin lok with our hat..

2004-08-08T04:37:00.001-07:00

me n my beautiful mUmMy!~!

2004-08-08T04:37:00.000-07:00

ehehe.. mdm sue pulled us BY DE FLOWERS to take pictures with us *gOsh* btw.. we WON THIRD =)

2004-08-04T23:17:00.000-07:00

*yaWn* so late le.. haiz.. poor bloke.. broke de news to him...... now i feel guilty.. me n my big mouth =, i hope everything turns out fine for him though.. HO hUm.. dat dumb brian. he kept my ss wb IN HIS SS WB all this while.. make me sit on de floor.. GRRRRR.. owe me california pizza.. hahaha.. im so boreddddd..... now everyone bcoming hardowrking why?! sianz ½ ang moh ang moh

2004-08-03T15:59:00.000-07:00

damnit.. My mom scolding me and .. seen on WEBCAM =x so embarrasing.. but nvm la.. cant use comp so often now. =, hai... so boreddddd... nv go skul today but today everyone slack.. wasted siaz =. HOHOhOHo.. IM soOo bORED! shi send me a game.. drug dealer.. hahaha... dumb game but occupied me awhile

2004-08-01T14:52:00.001-07:00

hMM.. tontontontonton add meeeeeeee.... hahahaa.. yesterday saw something i shdnt see.. AHA.. bribe meeeeeeeeeeeeee =x so sad.. He's Leaving

2004-08-01T00:06:00.000-07:00

CUTE?!

2004-08-01T00:05:00.002-07:00

HATS HATS..

2004-08-01T00:05:00.001-07:00

kissy baby

2004-08-01T00:05:00.000-07:00

haha.. see.. they make me sulk =.

2004-07-30T22:45:00.000-07:00

hehehee... so nice now.. got to meet up my last time stay in de house dat guy n cleared up some misunderstandingz! n He's talking to meeeee.. yipee yay!!

Yesterday celebrate briAn Chungs bday.. he complained bout wad i wore *GrUmBLe* but quite funla.. haha.. but i alwayz kena bully by dat baboooon n chung2.. hehehhe

Today oral.. sux.. she said i've got no expressiveness.. LOL.. she dont know me dat well does she!? ended up talking to her bout my brother bout my family n about de klas! HELLO ALL YOU 4c! THANK ME K.. i praised ya all a lot =x

2004-07-28T01:45:00.000-07:00

As I type.. A horny Monster is Goin Thru My Blog. =x ahahahaha.. this few days so damn tiredd.. i also duno why.. dmanit.. exams coming.. really such a waste of time i dun even know why imstudying anymore.. but now can say got more motivation since i've got nothing else to think bout but still tend to daydream. MUST STOP.. just now walked past 4a i tot got teachers everyone doin work.. den.. TMD >.<>ACT everyone was studying on their own.. haha.. during a math.. played PPG =x fiona slept den de rest doin work seriously.. O wait justina slept ½ way thru.. tsk tsk.. we should be ashamed.. but my Horoscope says dat..... we must not dwell on de past only then can you achieve good results =) ....de perfect excuse....

2004-07-26T22:19:00.000-07:00

Its back to square one.. its alwayz de same old story.. ATTiTUDE.. i got AP. damnit.. just caused of dat.. AGAIN. nvm . its not meant to be i guess.. but still.. all this while have ya been lying? hahhahaha.. confused =, ate empek2 NICE so NICE... feels like a 2nd heaven.. i shall pig out grow fatter grow whiter grow taller grow smarter grow SHYER for yutings sake.. today boring today.. kena sprayed by insecticide -.- lucky im still alive or else i'll sue the skul =) o ya... i shall check XJs bLOg n Zyx blog.. so secretive!? MUHAHHA... i won de bet again!!!! brazil n argentina DRAW.. im gOOD

2004-07-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

Gosh.. yesterday see tontontontontontonton! So hAppy~! hahaha.. but still its Her he knows. and surprise surprise.. BHB guy was actually a sweet lil thing at least hew as while still staying at MY house a long long time ago while i was still in siglap.. how cool ish dat?! it goes to show that we really are interconnected.. hehehe... anywayz.. miss those old days.. when de noti thing to do was running up and down de stairs and jumping up and down on de bed till de springs pop out while playing a mickey mouse CD (yeah we were musically inclined since young, we even liked to sing National Day songs =x) today quite boring.. done nothing.. last nite chatted till 3 30 am liddat with errol but woke up ard 8.. GOsh~! talked a lot.. reminded me of the Bet.. haha.. o well.. it was nice remiscing the past =D

2004-07-24T06:11:00.000-07:00

GRRrr... hate my short hair. Finally back on talking terms but it will never beee de sameeeeeeee..
today went KTV with em (cher liv cin) and Cin tot me de Sex dance or sumthing liddat.. basically just shaking de ass.. so OK.. there was noone there so everyone sjaked their asses =x AHHhHHhhhhhhh.. just came back from eating porridge my tummy feels MUCh better.. My moms back but she wanna go again on 2nd August. NO PLEASE NO. if i hafta go home alone again? i seriously will kill myself =x den met tonnnnnnnnnnnnnn.... SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2004-07-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

yesterday so sad.. kept avoiding each other like some kind of retard den now he wont even talk to me. But its my fault la.. hahahaa.. Didnt felt like goin to skul today and slept the whole way thru but still feels very tired.. gOsh.. uploading photos in awhile den =)

2004-07-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

yutings n piggy.. notice de difference in hgt =x

2004-07-22T06:45:00.002-07:00

FINALE.. US n MABEL

2004-07-22T06:45:00.001-07:00

me n zy again! two blackies

2004-07-22T06:45:00.000-07:00

me n zy..

*gOsh* ing

gOsh ing